Thursday, January 1, 2009

反正不会死 but this time I may die...

Never Try, Never Know
I saw my friend's (Axiao's) blog and strike on to me was her motto in life "Never Try, Never Know". Came to think about it, I spent my life with the motto "反正不会死" (As long as you will never die).

Means I will do whatever and try new things if it will never bring death. I tried new businesses, direct sales and learnt a lot of things. In fact a lot of things beyond elaboration here. I must admit I may not be the FIRST to do it nor will I be daring enough to try new things. I always have my fears and very often, I need examples of people showing it or demonstrate it before I do it.


Say, for example, I was at a seminar doing arrow breaking with our necks. At first I wanted to be the first to try but our group leader said he will go first so I let it. Then I tried to be the second, but as I positioned myself and I was all ready to break it - I stopped and asked that someone else do it first. The reason was simple: I have not seen a lady doing that YET. Once a lady tried and I seen it with my own eyes only did I dare to do it and of course, I DID IT!

That act of breaking arrow may have the risks of death but I did it anyway. The session actually enlightened myself to know myself better. In short, I need examples but being a fast learner, once you teach a dog to sit, the dog sits quietly. That's HoongLing!

A Giant Leap Forward
This time I am a huge, giant step ahead from "Never Try, Never Know". I am far ahead of 反正不会死! I am risking my live to donate part of my liver to a friend. This will be a major operation to remove my right lobe of the liver (about 60%) to Lee An Qi, a family friend who is now having cancer. Only 13-years old and already under chemotheraphy is really something very dreading.

Although my motto was to try things 反正不会死, but this time is a major operation which the risk of death will be 0.5%, risk of infections 15% and no one knows the long-term future for a living donor yet because the technology for living liver donation is pretty less than 2 decades now. Yet, something in me has the urge to JUST DO IT!

At first, I was in a complicated relationship which forced me to do something out of my mind. Then, doubts started to pour in and I wanted to review the decision. However, it wasn't much of a crossroad at all. I made up my mind pretty soon and really stick by it to JUST DO IT! Now, when people ask me "Why are you doing this?" I simply answer, "Why not?"

I thought this is just a normal act of kindness and never thought this is such a great thing to do until everyone whom I have spoken to said that this is a great sacrifice. Ain't human's life is to help each other? I really do not know but really, is this act so great?

I have been through thorough tests to ensure I am fit enough to donate my liver. The tests include blood test, urine test, abdominal ultrasound, ECG, CT Scan, X-Ray and 24-hour urine collection! Operation will be done in Gleneagles Hospital, Singapore.

Singapore - Gleneagles Hospital looks really much like a 5-star hotel so rest assure that once I wake up I will have time to relax and rejuvenate.

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Welcome to the NEW YEAR 2009!!

As my company XeerSoft is busy with new year resolution, I would like to made mine, too. Seems like the business of making resolution does not come to my mind very often these years.

Listening to Emil Chow's song, the lyrics went like 忙忙忙 忙忙忙 忙是為了自己的理想 還是為了不讓別人失望
(Busy busy busy, busy busy busy, busy is for own ambition or was it to not let people down)

Thinking back, no doubt I have really done a lot of great things. Reflecting why I do it - it was really for someone special. I still remember my aunt (who brought me up) crying to say that we have no achievements in our family. I held on to her words and continued on to do great things to have achievements so she can be proud of the family. I DID IT!

Now is the time for me to stop and reflect. Year 2009 will be the year for me to reflect, relax and rejuvenate.

For the start, I have resigned from almost all NGOs I have joined - CyberCare (my beloved organization which I learnt so much from), Rukun Tetangga Pandan Jaya and Rukun Tetangga Pandan Perdana (a NGO I started and one I am related to), St. John Ambulance Malaysia (will stop once the book is done) and the Dallas Villas Management Corporation (toppled some corrupt guys and elected committee, but I resigned).

I still have Persatuan Pemuda Negara being very passive now and my part time job with YB Dato' Sri Ong Tee Keat, apart from my full time job in XeerSoft.

I have wanted to serve the community very much since young. The taste of serving especially with wit and shrewdness in management plus getting people much older than you to nod at your directions, respect your ways of working and cooperate with you, was really a pleasure. Much more to it, I have done things great to the community, I have helped lives.

Reflections of all these will come later in the blog as I start to think of things.

To resign from all the organizations is not an easy task. It was the decision I made to donate part of my liver to a friend that made me have the courage to stop all NGOs. In fact, I was awaken by a guy who advised me the brotherly way. I am glad to know "Well, the world will not die without me!" Sometimes, doing so much things for others, although I enjoyed it very much, it made me lack of time for myself.

This year it will definitely be a total change and I welcome the year 2009 for MYSELF. Although it sounds selfish, but believe it or not, I need to recollect bits and pieces of myself.

Year 2009!

Friday, December 26, 2008

The Mercedes Benz - a major decision of my life

Geting truly excited these few days - exciting sales coming in my company, excitement of new modules, great new capabilities of XeerSoft solution and Merry Christmas plus Happy Birthday, of course!

As well as there were excitements, my mind is also clouding with fears over the coming surgery. An operation which is a major decision of my life!

Well... I have decided to donate part of my liver to a father's friend. At first, I saw an email, and then I sms the sender to ask if they still need blood. Overlooking the email, I thought O+ blood was needed. The reply came "Still needed but not blood. Is liver". I gasped. But my immediate response was - why not?

So, there I went to send a reply "I can still help" Little did I know that the world is so small, this was the girl which my dad mentioned the other day. 13-year old girl staying in Connaught, having liver cancer, now under chemo and needing a liver for transplant.

Wow... where do I start to tell stories of this journey to the Mercedes Benz? Since I do not know where to start, so let's end first. Hahaha... keep the story for suspense later! And why Mercedes Benz, you will know!

Too late now, gotta sleep...

Sunday, August 10, 2008

Busy busy busy with a new book-writing project

Currently I am working on a new project to embark to write a book for the St. John Ambulance Malaysia which is celebrating its 100th year anniversary this year.

Check out the updates from here.

Startd some time ago but only now I have the time to update a little.